Just a little update

I figured I would write and let you all know what's going on. I feel like none of the outward appearances of life have changed, I'm still going to school, I'm just chillen in the Burg...nothing has changed that an outsider could see just by looking. However, I feel like as a person my life is changing dramatically. Isn't it funny when we want something so bad we will do anything not to lose it, but when it slips away you realize even though this is extremely hard there is something out there better, you just have to find it.
I'm starting to understand that what I want for my life and what's best for my life isn't always the same thing. I've learned that I can't control how others feel about me. I can't change the things people think, or the lies they tell. I can only change how I react to their actions, and the person I want to become because of their influence. I've learned that there is a reason why people enter and leave your life, they are there to help you grow. I've learned that a broken heart isn't always a bad thing. It may hurt so bad you can't breath but it's giving you the opportunity to meet someone who will mend it back together. I've learned you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince, and although you may be scared each time you go to choose a new one your that much closer to finding the guy who will sweep you off your feet...and not drop you. I've learned that family and friends will always be there when you've been knocked flat on your back. However, the most important thing I've learned is that when I feel so alone there is always somewhere there to help me out. When life gets to hard to stand...Kneel. It's the quote I've come to live by and I don't think I've ever spent so much time on my knees. It may not even be asking for help, but saying thank you for giving me this opportunity to be here, now. I hope I can grow to be a good enough person that I make my Father proud in every aspect of my life and that I can become the person he sent me here to be.
So as far as my life plan goes...it's yet to be decided. Can you believe I'm already 1/4 of the way done with school!! I want to be the best I can be, meaning I want to go far in the hair industry. So I'm giving it my all, putting forth a lot more effort and saying yes to a lot more things. Going back to college? I really don't know. I love what I'm doing, I love making people feel beautiful. I've thought about moving back to good old Blackfoot and buying a house....working at a killer salon there and doing everything I can to become bigger and better. I guess I'll just wait and see what happens, but as for now, I just want to live...and continue to learn. About everything life has to offer!