-Ordinary Miracle-

I've decided life is CrAzY!! Things can be going really well and then something happens and you just have to put things on hold for a minute, but in return this little side road, though extremely difficult, makes you so happy for what you have!!!
The new news in my life. I've been really sick. Meningitis to be exact. I've had it before, which is why having it again is so crazy, that never happens. At first I was ok, extremely tired with minor headaches, but I could manage and I went to school. Then it got worse, and school wasn't an option. I had to take a medical leave, for my own safety and also for the many people I'm around everyday. It's not a long leave, only two weeks, but I'm missing what I had in front of me.
I'm back in Blackfoot, living at home until everything gets back to normal and the Doc releases me to go back to school (cross your fingers for the 2nd!!!)
So as I wrote about in my last blog I'm trying a whole new me, and part in the new me is finding the good in everything. Being sick I've been thinking about what in the world could be good of feeling this bad. I feel so stupid because it was so obvious!!
I love my life. I have nothing at all to complain about! I'm at an amazing school, doing something I was pretty sure I would hate, but I love it. I'm surrounded by people who everyday help grow in one way or another. I'm learning amazing skills by very talented people. I have the best friends I could ask for, and no matter where I am, I've found open arms to fall into. I have a beautiful apartment and a car, that's ugly, but works. And I always know if the tank of gas is low and I need to come home, there will always be a way to fill it! My family is beautiful! I can't express how much I love each of them, for very different reasons. I hope I can take at least one thing from all of them, because they have so much good to teach me. And, I have the gospel. I know, I never really have been alone. Why would I complain?
So what does this have to do with being sick? Everything! I've decided maybe we get sick so we know how amazing it is to feel. And I have amazing things around me to help me feel good, even when my body is telling me I'm really not doing so well. I'm great. I love life, I really really do.
And now that I realize who I am, and that this really is who I want to be, I want to say sorry for who I was, and the attitude I had. I guess I was getting wet in the rain and not dancing. Now I just know there is always a reason to smile and get up and dance, even when it doesn't feel possible :)

Whatever it Takes

Well, I haven't done a little entry in quiet some time. So mother, here it is. (just fyi she tells me she checks my blog everyday to see if I have written something new so this one is for her)
Surprise!!! There is nothing new in my life! Thanksgiving rocked my socks and I swear I ate my weight in food. Christmas...AMAZING! Can I just say I had no idea how amazing it feels to have all your family around you all at once until I moved. I love them all so much and honestly as cliche as it sounds, that was the best part of my holiday! New Years...not a fan. It's great for all the couples that get to kiss as the clock strikes 12...but as for the singles...not so bueno. Congrats to the million of you that got engaged and shoved your ring in my face when you got back to school! I enjoyed it!!! Someday I'll get to do it to you!...I hope...
However, I am very excited for the new year!! It's going to be jammed pack full of amazingness! I get to go to Vegas in February!!! Wahoo! It's for school, there is an amazing hairshow there and I got a ticket! I'm so excited I get to meet Angus Mitchell!!! Amazing!
I've decided this year I want to work on one thing...me. I'm not exactly happy with who I am. Not that I do bad things or am a bad person. But I know I'm not the best I can be. 'Try a little harder, be a little better' right? I want to be the person I was sent here to be. I have so many things to do and I don't know how long I have to do them. I just want to continue to strive to be the best me. That's my goal for this year, and the rest of my life!

Just a little update

I figured I would write and let you all know what's going on. I feel like none of the outward appearances of life have changed, I'm still going to school, I'm just chillen in the Burg...nothing has changed that an outsider could see just by looking. However, I feel like as a person my life is changing dramatically. Isn't it funny when we want something so bad we will do anything not to lose it, but when it slips away you realize even though this is extremely hard there is something out there better, you just have to find it.
I'm starting to understand that what I want for my life and what's best for my life isn't always the same thing. I've learned that I can't control how others feel about me. I can't change the things people think, or the lies they tell. I can only change how I react to their actions, and the person I want to become because of their influence. I've learned that there is a reason why people enter and leave your life, they are there to help you grow. I've learned that a broken heart isn't always a bad thing. It may hurt so bad you can't breath but it's giving you the opportunity to meet someone who will mend it back together. I've learned you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince, and although you may be scared each time you go to choose a new one your that much closer to finding the guy who will sweep you off your feet...and not drop you. I've learned that family and friends will always be there when you've been knocked flat on your back. However, the most important thing I've learned is that when I feel so alone there is always somewhere there to help me out. When life gets to hard to stand...Kneel. It's the quote I've come to live by and I don't think I've ever spent so much time on my knees. It may not even be asking for help, but saying thank you for giving me this opportunity to be here, now. I hope I can grow to be a good enough person that I make my Father proud in every aspect of my life and that I can become the person he sent me here to be.
So as far as my life plan goes...it's yet to be decided. Can you believe I'm already 1/4 of the way done with school!! I want to be the best I can be, meaning I want to go far in the hair industry. So I'm giving it my all, putting forth a lot more effort and saying yes to a lot more things. Going back to college? I really don't know. I love what I'm doing, I love making people feel beautiful. I've thought about moving back to good old Blackfoot and buying a house....working at a killer salon there and doing everything I can to become bigger and better. I guess I'll just wait and see what happens, but as for now, I just want to live...and continue to learn. About everything life has to offer!

Son of a! I've been tagged!!!

Alright Sarah Sue this one is for you! So Sarah tagged me...meaning I have to list ten quirks about myself for everyone and their dog to read! So here they are! 1) I can't sleep in an unmade bed. Even if I don't make it in the morning I have to make it before I get in it at night...being busy in the morning now days I usually make it at night just to get right back in it I can't stand sleeping in a bed that hasn't been made...weird I know. 2) I can't use public restrooms. Sick. And if there is a time where it is a must I'll drive around until I find one clean enough to use. 3) I carry anti-bacterial hand soap everywhere I go and I use it after I touch anything that sick nasty germs could get on. 4) When I wash my hands I sing the ABC's out loud twice...it doesn't matter where I am, be prepared to hear a song. 5) Before doing a hair cut at school I have to have all my stuff set out in a certain order or I won't go get my guest...the scissors have a place the brush has a place...everything has to go in the order I like it or I can't give the haircut. 6) When I get really excited about something I put my hands by my face and wiggle my fingers. 7) I hate wearing shoes in the house and it drives me crazy when other people come in my apartment and walk on the carpet without taking their shoes off. 8) I hate being lactose and tolerant so....I pretend I'm not thinking it will change...it doesn't and I get sick every time. 9) When I want something I'll do anything to get it no matter if everyone tells me it's a bad idea. I have to learn my own way I can't just not do it because people tell me not to. 10) I say ouch when it doesn't even hurt me at all...and I do it a lot. I don't know why, but I do. haha and there they are! Enjoy! Now time for me to tag....I choose....Kalie, Melissa, and Me Madre :)

Yo What Up?!

Alright my dear readers. I thought I would write you a little message about my life...seeing as it's changed so much! (that was sarcasm just so you know)
ANYWHO! Life in the big R-Burg at the bad PM is just magnifico. I'm on the floor taking appointments and I love it. The tips I get are freaking awesome it makes my day...hint hint if you ever get your hair done by me. The only thing I don't like about it is the fact that hair dye turns my finger nails black making me look emo...and I wear gloves. I just don't understand why, but it does and it sucks. Other then that it's just wonderful and I love school.
I moved like a month ago. I don't know if I wrote about that before...if I did...now you know twice! I live with some pretty sweet girls we have fun and do some very interesting things. Gotta love the roommates.
Living with 3 other girls from places other then Blackfoot brings some very interesting people into our apartment. All I have to say is BYU-I people are freaking crazy (most of them...not all of them...but most) I've decided that RM's going to BYU-I just want to get married. That's why they are there....BYU-I do for sure. Some kid told me I was his soul mate and that he could see me as his eternal companion. Weird thing is...I haven't even gone on a date with him...he came to my apartment with some crazy boys and I asked him about his mission and told him about Blackfoot...then he watched What Happens in Vegas with us...and I didn't even sit by him so I don't know where in the H-E- double hockey sticks he is getting this soulmatesness from. I am not down for that he is a creeper. And not only that but my roommates say I'm shallow anyways because I look for way too much in a guy and they think it is unrealistic. I however know it's not unrealistic in fact I know someone will meet almost everything on my unrealistic list. However, their out of this world freakishness does give me some laughs and crazy journal entries and just makes the time go by faster until prince charming himself finds me ;). And that's my life. Livin the dream for sure. I'm trying to make my life seem like the song off the Goofy Movie, you know Stand Out....haha it's awesome and I can totally see me in the music video. haha jokes so I'll let you know how my life changes in hopes of being more like that song. That's all for now. Peace out home skillets. Word to your mother.

I passed!!!!!!!!

So last week was my floor and written test to get out of core and....I passed!!! I'm no longer in core! Wahoo! It's been the coolest feeling ever. It was the longest most stressful 6 weeks of my life. Don't get me wrong I loved it but it was dang hard and there was a lot of information to obtain. I'm now on the floor! I have to protege for 2 weeks and then I'm on my own taking appointments. I'm so excited to finally start doing what I came here for! The girl I was helping today was amazing and it got me really excited to do what I'm doing. I can't wait to make people feel beautiful! It's awesome to think I can play a part in that!!! I'm so happy!!!!!!!!

There is a possibility I have a deathly contagious disease...

Ok ok...maybe I don't have a disease. But I could. Today was the worst day of my life! The most horrible thing that could ever happen to me did. I gave someone a pedicure today!! It is very possible that I could have died of repulsiveness.
I know you might be thinking I'm making a big deal out of nothing at all. But it is a big deal. I HATE feet! Pretty much more than anything else ever. This isn't just something I find slightly irritating. It's something that makes me sick to even think about. Some people hate spiders or snakes maybe even getting old. Nope not me. I'm afraid of feet. And it was a horrible experience.
So about this nasty procedure I had to take part in. Everyone in my class knows I've been dreading this day. Trust me I've talked about it. So no one wanted to be my partner in fear that I would throw up on them once I saw their nasty feet. Which isn't exactly a stretch I really did want to. Anyways, there were 10 sighs of relief when the names were called about who was to be paired up with who. The 11th girl had the look of death on her face knowing I would have to be her partner. I want you to know I tried to be positive and forward focused but it is freaking hard when you have someones foot in your face and you have to massage it for ten freaking minutes each foot! And to make it worse this girl has been a swimmer all her life! Have you ever seen a swimmers foot?! I hadn't until today and it's not something I would ever like to experience again. No bueno. Her toes were webbed together, her heals were coarse and flaking off, and her toe nails stained yellow from all the chlorine. I'm sure the bright orange toe nail polish that I used made everything look tons better.
I better get used to feet seeing as most girls have AT LEAST 5 pedicures a week while at school.

All I can say is....I will never look at Michael Phelps the same way again.