-Ordinary Miracle-

I've decided life is CrAzY!! Things can be going really well and then something happens and you just have to put things on hold for a minute, but in return this little side road, though extremely difficult, makes you so happy for what you have!!!
The new news in my life. I've been really sick. Meningitis to be exact. I've had it before, which is why having it again is so crazy, that never happens. At first I was ok, extremely tired with minor headaches, but I could manage and I went to school. Then it got worse, and school wasn't an option. I had to take a medical leave, for my own safety and also for the many people I'm around everyday. It's not a long leave, only two weeks, but I'm missing what I had in front of me.
I'm back in Blackfoot, living at home until everything gets back to normal and the Doc releases me to go back to school (cross your fingers for the 2nd!!!)
So as I wrote about in my last blog I'm trying a whole new me, and part in the new me is finding the good in everything. Being sick I've been thinking about what in the world could be good of feeling this bad. I feel so stupid because it was so obvious!!
I love my life. I have nothing at all to complain about! I'm at an amazing school, doing something I was pretty sure I would hate, but I love it. I'm surrounded by people who everyday help grow in one way or another. I'm learning amazing skills by very talented people. I have the best friends I could ask for, and no matter where I am, I've found open arms to fall into. I have a beautiful apartment and a car, that's ugly, but works. And I always know if the tank of gas is low and I need to come home, there will always be a way to fill it! My family is beautiful! I can't express how much I love each of them, for very different reasons. I hope I can take at least one thing from all of them, because they have so much good to teach me. And, I have the gospel. I know, I never really have been alone. Why would I complain?
So what does this have to do with being sick? Everything! I've decided maybe we get sick so we know how amazing it is to feel. And I have amazing things around me to help me feel good, even when my body is telling me I'm really not doing so well. I'm great. I love life, I really really do.
And now that I realize who I am, and that this really is who I want to be, I want to say sorry for who I was, and the attitude I had. I guess I was getting wet in the rain and not dancing. Now I just know there is always a reason to smile and get up and dance, even when it doesn't feel possible :)

Whatever it Takes

Well, I haven't done a little entry in quiet some time. So mother, here it is. (just fyi she tells me she checks my blog everyday to see if I have written something new so this one is for her)
Surprise!!! There is nothing new in my life! Thanksgiving rocked my socks and I swear I ate my weight in food. Christmas...AMAZING! Can I just say I had no idea how amazing it feels to have all your family around you all at once until I moved. I love them all so much and honestly as cliche as it sounds, that was the best part of my holiday! New Years...not a fan. It's great for all the couples that get to kiss as the clock strikes 12...but as for the singles...not so bueno. Congrats to the million of you that got engaged and shoved your ring in my face when you got back to school! I enjoyed it!!! Someday I'll get to do it to you!...I hope...
However, I am very excited for the new year!! It's going to be jammed pack full of amazingness! I get to go to Vegas in February!!! Wahoo! It's for school, there is an amazing hairshow there and I got a ticket! I'm so excited I get to meet Angus Mitchell!!! Amazing!
I've decided this year I want to work on one thing...me. I'm not exactly happy with who I am. Not that I do bad things or am a bad person. But I know I'm not the best I can be. 'Try a little harder, be a little better' right? I want to be the person I was sent here to be. I have so many things to do and I don't know how long I have to do them. I just want to continue to strive to be the best me. That's my goal for this year, and the rest of my life!